Loosing a loved one…

This is never an easy time in life. I know that we all look for proof that our loved ones have made it to the other side. Some sort of sign that will bring us comfort that they are okay. I wanted to share 2 of my own experiences that might help you with your own loss and perhaps validate for you that your own experience was real, not a coincidence.

My mom passed away March 8, 2010. I received a call around 10:30pm from her husband Gord. He told me she was having a heart attack and things didn’t look good and that the paramedics were already with them for the last 30 minutes and they would be taking her to the hospital. I am just under an hour away. I get dressed, call my sister and have her head over (she was 10 minutes away) and “flew” down the highway. I don’t know what I was thinking. I just wanted to get there. I wanted to encourage her to fight. I was literally 5 minutes away from her house and as if she was sitting beside me, I heard the words clear as day “Rally racer rally racer”. Her voice as well. It was then that I knew she had crossed over. That racing there was no longer something I needed to do. She was gone.

I arrived at the hospital and they confirmed, they had tried everything, but nothing could be done.

Sheila & Gord
Sheila & Gord

The second time:
My step Dad Gord, had been fighting cancer since November. It was in May that the tumor had grown so large, that it was blocking his airway in his neck and restricting blood flow to his brain. They had no choice but to sedate him, as when alert he would try and pull out all of his ports, any tubes that were helping him to receive oxygen.. anything that would help keep him alive. As a family we had been told by the Dr’s there was nothing further they could do for him, and would have to keep him sedated until he passed away. Through conversations with Gord, he drew the line at being a “vegetable” and had told us he would rather they stopped all life support if that were to happen.
The longest 2 weeks of my life occurred during this time and it was hard to watch. I spent every day at the hospital, talking to him, letting him know I was there. Arranging for other people to visit with him as well. Say their goodbyes. It was June 16th, 2016 that I had a dream of Gord. I realized the next day that this was no ordinary dream. He came to me in a dream, he was “stuck” in this dark closet and was bumping into the walls, going back and forth like a blind person not being able to find their way out. He said “I don’t know where I am supposed to go”. Like all dreams, our imagination goes wild and apparently my dreaming self thought this response was appropriate “Don’t eat the people!” (I watch too much walking dead and obviously thought he was a zombie?!) The next day, I drove to the hospital. It was my 40th birthday. I told Gord about my dream, about what I had said to him and then let him know that my mom was waiting for him. That I loved him, that we would all miss him and to tell my mom I miss her too. I headed home to pick up my kids from school, to get a call from Gord’s daughter in law that she was told that there was signs it could happen any minute. I raced back, and missed him by 10 minutes.

Your loved ones will do their best to show you signs that they are okay. That they made it. Whether it’s manifesting through voice near you, out loud or in your head. Perhaps it’s through a “dream”. Your loved ones will utilize your strengths to connect with you. Too often we think it’s a coincidence. We assume it was wishful thinking. There are a lot of signs that will show you that they are thinking of you and not too far.

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Ever had a dream that shook you to the core?

Do you ever wake up from a dream and think “what the heck?”

I dream almost every night. The things that go through my mind while sleeping, I am sure you would not believe half of the stuff that comes through!

In my dream last night, I was driving my van down a road, and literally a rock slide started in front of me. As I continued to try and out maneuver this rock slide, I quickly turned down a street only to see that start to be blocked off as well. I quickly floored it and turned around because I didn’t want to be trapped down that street. As I got further away to a safe area it showed me standing beside my Dad. As we talked, we realized that all over the world, parts of land had sunken into the ground. Collapsed a bit further into the earth. Like a sink hole, but not as deep! My dad commented that the water supply would be next. I was shocked, because where would the water all go? He referred to the water that was stored for drinking and that there was a hole now in the bottom. We watched the news, and sure enough as it continued with the media coverage they reported on all of the damage, and how low the water was getting. I looked at my Dad and said “its the end of the world as we know it… isn’t it”. Then I woke up.

Is this dream the prediction of the end of the world? No, I do not think so.  Sometimes our dreams are our guides showing us things that are happening in our waking life. Things that we need to pay more attention too in order to move forward. What does my dream say to me?  I love using dreammoods.com to help interpret my dreams. When something is prominent I know there is further meaning (Not like my plants vs zombie dream the one night!)

Here is what my dream means
Rock Slide
To see a rock slide in your dream suggests that you are experiencing a “rocky” period in your waking life. You are overwhelmed with pressure. You feel like the weight of life’s daily demands is crumbling down on you.

Driving
To dream that you are driving a vehicle signifies your life’s journey and your path in life. The dream is telling of how you are moving and navigating through life.

There is change that is happening in my life, I provide daycare before and after school, and one of the parents that has two children is possibly going to homeschool next year, another one of my daycare kids is done with daycare as she starts middle school next year and then my last two kids are my nephews. My sister lost her current contract (it ended) and will be looking closer to home for new work, which means that she could possibly pick up her own kids after school and also will not need care…

So the dilemma for me, is not knowing what comes next. I can’t read myself and I wonder if this is a sign that I move on to something else and let the daycare part of my life naturally phase out, or if I start with new kids.

What are your thoughts?

Tarot cards for readings?

When I am working on a reading, I do not usually use tarot cards. All of the information I receive is done through intuitively, through my guides and yours and given to you as I am shown it. There are some instances when the message/vision is not 100% clear, or I am not sure how I should interpret this. This is when a tarot card would come in handy!

I have many decks, but my favorites are John Hollands “The Psychic Tarot Oracle Deck”, Denise Linn “Soul Coaching Oracle Cards” and James Van Praagh “The Soul’s Journey Lesson cards”. These by far I feel the most connected too and I feel provide more insight than others that I have tried.

How do you use a tarot card? Aside from the traditional method’s printed in the instruction booklet with your tarot deck, if your just taking ONE card to add to a reading, hold the card in both hands, without looking at it, and feel the energy. What are the visuals your guides are telling you. Is there a feeling? A color, or a message? Write it down. After you have done this, look at the card. Does it have the elements on the card on what you had felt? Include what you have written down, along with the interpretation of the card. Often times, your own intuition/insight will come through in regards to how the card will fit.

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